FLASHBACK!! So peace...i don't even remember when is the last time i feel as peace as today (8 Apr 08). There's quite a long time i didn't go back home...until today, when i saw my brother (suddenly grow much taller than me), and he said to me with hope "2nd Sis, Why don't u come back with me?Going back home?" At that moment, I was speechless, my heart felt something vulnerable. As a soft smooth voice calling. The whisper sounds familiar to me. I realize that, I have a home...far away yet very warm.
The journey back to home begin, just like a video tape being rewinded.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Bacalah kalau kita nie …. KAWAN (2007)
Kata mak,
Kawan itu ibarat lebah,
Habis madu sepah dibuang
Kata abah,
Kawan itu umpama bunga ros,
Dipandang cantik dipegang sakit
Kata atuk,
Kawan itu seperti air,
Terus mengalir
Kata nek,
Kawan itu bak bulan,
Dipuja dan disanjung tapi nun jauh di sana
Kata saudara,
Kawan itu macam makanan
Kawan makan kawan
Kata abang,
Kawan itu seperti lembu
Mengikut saja apa dikata
Kata kakak,
Kawan itu tak ubah macam durian
Bau saja busuk tapi sedap dimakan
Kata adik
Kawan itu macam biskut
Sekejap ada sekejap tak ada
Kata aku,
Kawan itu tak kisahlah macam mana,
Walaupun dia ibarat lebah, umpama bunga ros,
Seperti air, bulan ataupun lembu,
Tak ubah macam durian dan biskut,
dia tetap kawan…
tau tak sebab apa?
Sekali aku dah kawan dengan dia,
Selamanya dia tetap kawan aku….
Bacalah kalau kita ni kawan…..
Kawan itu ibarat lebah,
Habis madu sepah dibuang
Kata abah,
Kawan itu umpama bunga ros,
Dipandang cantik dipegang sakit
Kata atuk,
Kawan itu seperti air,
Terus mengalir
Kata nek,
Kawan itu bak bulan,
Dipuja dan disanjung tapi nun jauh di sana
Kata saudara,
Kawan itu macam makanan
Kawan makan kawan
Kata abang,
Kawan itu seperti lembu
Mengikut saja apa dikata
Kata kakak,
Kawan itu tak ubah macam durian
Bau saja busuk tapi sedap dimakan
Kata adik
Kawan itu macam biskut
Sekejap ada sekejap tak ada
Kata aku,
Kawan itu tak kisahlah macam mana,
Walaupun dia ibarat lebah, umpama bunga ros,
Seperti air, bulan ataupun lembu,
Tak ubah macam durian dan biskut,
dia tetap kawan…
tau tak sebab apa?
Sekali aku dah kawan dengan dia,
Selamanya dia tetap kawan aku….
Bacalah kalau kita ni kawan…..
Our World is Wonderful (2001)
The world is wonderful!
With its countries
Mountain and seas,
People and creatures,
Flowers and trees,
The fish in the water,
And the birds in the air,
Are calling to ask us
To be aware
These are our treasures,
A gift from above,
We should be thankful,
Be caring and showing love,
For the blue of the ocean,
For the green of the forest,
And the valleys so fair
The song of the skylark,
The warmth of the sun,
The rushing water of clear streams,
Where the new life begun,
Are valuable gift,
We should cherish,
So join in the call,
To strive to preserve them,For the future of all
With its countries
Mountain and seas,
People and creatures,
Flowers and trees,
The fish in the water,
And the birds in the air,
Are calling to ask us
To be aware
These are our treasures,
A gift from above,
We should be thankful,
Be caring and showing love,
For the blue of the ocean,
For the green of the forest,
And the valleys so fair
The song of the skylark,
The warmth of the sun,
The rushing water of clear streams,
Where the new life begun,
Are valuable gift,
We should cherish,
So join in the call,
To strive to preserve them,For the future of all
Dancing with nature (3 Dis 2007)
Have you ever look up into the sky?
The blue blue sky above?
Have you ever use your imagination ?
Can you see through the clouds?
The white fluffy clouds?
There ! I can see a dragon, a ships, a giant, fairy and lots more
When I was small
There were so many fantasy and believes
Lies within myself …towards the nature
I used to live by imagination I enjoyed
As I can feel it! Really!
Nothing as fun as what I had experienced
As I am a part of the motherland
Lying down on a piece of greenie tickly grass
Smelling the air, the soil, the rock, the raindrops, the leaves….
Feeling the warm of the sun
Shining through the trees above me
The feeling of blowing winds
Hearing the birds chirping happily
The grasshopper jumping
The butterfly and firefly searching
The dripping sound of the raindrops
A thousand steps of the ants keeps on working…
The falling leaves and the
river flowing…cross the rocks and sticks
It’s the sound of nature
Whispering with pleasure and joy
Ever feel the peace like this before
The nature’s is whispering to me
Kindly invite me to be the honourable guest
Every movement of the winds,
clouds, leaves, grasshopper, rocks, birds and ants
Is every steps of the nature’s dance
The land itself. is a dancing floor
The sound I heard,
is the tune, rhythm and the melody
together, we dance …..
The blue blue sky above?
Have you ever use your imagination ?
Can you see through the clouds?
The white fluffy clouds?
There ! I can see a dragon, a ships, a giant, fairy and lots more
When I was small
There were so many fantasy and believes
Lies within myself …towards the nature
I used to live by imagination I enjoyed
As I can feel it! Really!
Nothing as fun as what I had experienced
As I am a part of the motherland
Lying down on a piece of greenie tickly grass
Smelling the air, the soil, the rock, the raindrops, the leaves….
Feeling the warm of the sun
Shining through the trees above me
The feeling of blowing winds
Hearing the birds chirping happily
The grasshopper jumping
The butterfly and firefly searching
The dripping sound of the raindrops
A thousand steps of the ants keeps on working…
The falling leaves and the
river flowing…cross the rocks and sticks
It’s the sound of nature
Whispering with pleasure and joy
Ever feel the peace like this before
The nature’s is whispering to me
Kindly invite me to be the honourable guest
Every movement of the winds,
clouds, leaves, grasshopper, rocks, birds and ants
Is every steps of the nature’s dance
The land itself. is a dancing floor
The sound I heard,
is the tune, rhythm and the melody
together, we dance …..
Autumn (2002)
We control the world
We use the endless sky above
And sometimes we believe….
Some say we make history through the air
We still breathe the same today
And when the land begins to call
The spirits they dance
The leaves they fall
The changes has begun and what remains
Not even thoughts, not even names
We can remember to forget
We can achieve the highest aims
But we won’t change the rules we’re depending on
Now the freaks of nature’s
Holding up the mirror to the haughty thoughts
Our brains are filled up
Don’t you feel the earth is trembling to heal
the wound we injured
The things are easy as they are
And when the time begins to fade
The side – scene changes because
it may be too late
We cannot keep up
We will be left behind
For now the land begins to call
We use the endless sky above
And sometimes we believe….
Some say we make history through the air
We still breathe the same today
And when the land begins to call
The spirits they dance
The leaves they fall
The changes has begun and what remains
Not even thoughts, not even names
We can remember to forget
We can achieve the highest aims
But we won’t change the rules we’re depending on
Now the freaks of nature’s
Holding up the mirror to the haughty thoughts
Our brains are filled up
Don’t you feel the earth is trembling to heal
the wound we injured
The things are easy as they are
And when the time begins to fade
The side – scene changes because
it may be too late
We cannot keep up
We will be left behind
For now the land begins to call
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
女人有時真的好傻
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而拋下自己的父母，來照顧那男人的父母；但男人不用..
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而寧願自己挺顆又重又大的球十個月， 只為了替那男人生下一個跟男人姓的下一代；還得承受生完小孩後的體質變差、身材變形的後遺症，但男人不用…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄一卡車追求他的好男人，只為和男人 長廂廝守，卻埋沒了最美的青春；但男人卻不為青春所懼，反而愈老愈值錢…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄父母給她二十多年的姓，而跟著老公姓，又被冠上"太太" 二字；但男人沒變…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而早上上班，晚上煮飯做家事帶小孩，有工作也有家事的壓力；但男人沒差，反而多了個賺錢的人和不用給薪的女傭…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而去適應一個完全不同的家庭和面對男 人的試親友團批評，女人懂事圖尋求男人的保護時，換來的是…男人不僅沒有保護他的女人，反而一起落井下石，在一個女人孤力無援的環境裡~~
男人啊 ！若你您的身邊有這樣的一個傻女人時，請當她的笨男人，好好的珍惜她、照顧她吧!
別忘了，她不是天生就該來照顧你們全家大小的，女人很單純也很懂事，只要當她受傷時，好好傾聽她、支持她、保護她，為她拭淚，她就會感動一輩子
更別忘了，當男人年老時或生病時為您把屎把尿的，絕不是已老的也要您照顧的父母，最有可能的就是從年輕到老，始終在您身邊的女人。
女人们，你们赞同吗？男人们，你们有珍惜吗？
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而寧願自己挺顆又重又大的球十個月， 只為了替那男人生下一個跟男人姓的下一代；還得承受生完小孩後的體質變差、身材變形的後遺症，但男人不用…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄一卡車追求他的好男人，只為和男人 長廂廝守，卻埋沒了最美的青春；但男人卻不為青春所懼，反而愈老愈值錢…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄父母給她二十多年的姓，而跟著老公姓，又被冠上"太太" 二字；但男人沒變…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而早上上班，晚上煮飯做家事帶小孩，有工作也有家事的壓力；但男人沒差，反而多了個賺錢的人和不用給薪的女傭…
女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而去適應一個完全不同的家庭和面對男 人的試親友團批評，女人懂事圖尋求男人的保護時，換來的是…男人不僅沒有保護他的女人，反而一起落井下石，在一個女人孤力無援的環境裡~~
男人啊 ！若你您的身邊有這樣的一個傻女人時，請當她的笨男人，好好的珍惜她、照顧她吧!
別忘了，她不是天生就該來照顧你們全家大小的，女人很單純也很懂事，只要當她受傷時，好好傾聽她、支持她、保護她，為她拭淚，她就會感動一輩子
更別忘了，當男人年老時或生病時為您把屎把尿的，絕不是已老的也要您照顧的父母，最有可能的就是從年輕到老，始終在您身邊的女人。
女人们，你们赞同吗？男人们，你们有珍惜吗？
Monday, December 31, 2007
對 不 起 。。。謝 謝 !
我還記得曾經 。。。
有一個你 ﹐莫莫的陪伴着我
無條件的。。。安靜的。。。神密的
隨時隨克都在圍繞着我
曾經 。。。
我們從深夜談到天亮
只有你肯聽我所說的話
也只有你能聽得見我的心聲
不必我多說 ﹐你也能了解我的一切
也許 。。。
你比我跟了解我自己
悲傷覺望時﹐你把肩膀讓我靠
依服讓我擦淚水和鼻涕
手腳不動任我拳打腳題
也不曾追問 。。。只有等待
當我冷靜下來了
原意說的時後
你就會是那個
成為我第一個忠實的 。。。 聽重 !
開心時﹐
我常常把你給忘記
遠遠的把你給當着模生人看
回想過來 。。。我想 ﹐
你也會在某個角落裡
在為我現上祝福和一起干杯慶祝吧
但 。。。現實終是參枯的
很抱歉﹐我要狠狠的把你給忘記
你也因該比我請楚
你是不存在的 。。。假相 。。。。
你是我的影子啊!
活在我心裡黑安中的同伴
一切都是 為了安慰和偏自己的 。。。
朋友和家人也因此認為
我是個自閉的人甚至神筋有問題 。。。
許多次也因為我而悲傷﹐ 絕望 。。。
對不起 。。我真的該醒醒了 !
當我找到辛福 ﹐快樂和目標的時候
你也不知不覺的消失了
連一聲到別的話也沒向我說!
而現在
每當 。。。剩下我一個人的時候
我又開始懷念我們過去終終的日子
但 。。。那感覺可不一樣了
再也看不見你了!
我因該是開心還是傷心呢 ?
朋友啊。。。
雖然我已找到了當初我所可望的
但我卻失去了你
你若是真實的多好阿。。。
朋友啊。。。
你可知道﹐ 我在這新的世界
在茫茫人海中﹐ 還沒找到象你一樣
可以談心事和共同喜怒哀樂的有緣人呢
你為什麼這麼快就放手
讓我髑自一個人面對呢?
但, 我也很請楚的一點
那就是我 。。。
不可以在活在自己的世界了!
朋友 。。。對于你 。。。。
我只能夠說的就只有。。。
對不起。。。謝謝!
有一個你 ﹐莫莫的陪伴着我
無條件的。。。安靜的。。。神密的
隨時隨克都在圍繞着我
曾經 。。。
我們從深夜談到天亮
只有你肯聽我所說的話
也只有你能聽得見我的心聲
不必我多說 ﹐你也能了解我的一切
也許 。。。
你比我跟了解我自己
悲傷覺望時﹐你把肩膀讓我靠
依服讓我擦淚水和鼻涕
手腳不動任我拳打腳題
也不曾追問 。。。只有等待
當我冷靜下來了
原意說的時後
你就會是那個
成為我第一個忠實的 。。。 聽重 !
開心時﹐
我常常把你給忘記
遠遠的把你給當着模生人看
回想過來 。。。我想 ﹐
你也會在某個角落裡
在為我現上祝福和一起干杯慶祝吧
但 。。。現實終是參枯的
很抱歉﹐我要狠狠的把你給忘記
你也因該比我請楚
你是不存在的 。。。假相 。。。。
你是我的影子啊!
活在我心裡黑安中的同伴
一切都是 為了安慰和偏自己的 。。。
朋友和家人也因此認為
我是個自閉的人甚至神筋有問題 。。。
許多次也因為我而悲傷﹐ 絕望 。。。
對不起 。。我真的該醒醒了 !
當我找到辛福 ﹐快樂和目標的時候
你也不知不覺的消失了
連一聲到別的話也沒向我說!
而現在
每當 。。。剩下我一個人的時候
我又開始懷念我們過去終終的日子
但 。。。那感覺可不一樣了
再也看不見你了!
我因該是開心還是傷心呢 ?
朋友啊。。。
雖然我已找到了當初我所可望的
但我卻失去了你
你若是真實的多好阿。。。
朋友啊。。。
你可知道﹐ 我在這新的世界
在茫茫人海中﹐ 還沒找到象你一樣
可以談心事和共同喜怒哀樂的有緣人呢
你為什麼這麼快就放手
讓我髑自一個人面對呢?
但, 我也很請楚的一點
那就是我 。。。
不可以在活在自己的世界了!
朋友 。。。對于你 。。。。
我只能夠說的就只有。。。
對不起。。。謝謝!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Trusted in you
My friend,
from the first time we met,
I know that you’re the one
That I needed, like a friend indeed
Dear friend,
When we talk, I can feel that
My loneliness has flushed away
and the emptiness has been filled
It was you..!!
Who makes my life so full….
It’s meaningful, colourful and wonderful
Yet,
I realize that, the bridge we build
weren’t solid enough
not as strong as I though it could be
the wind from the surrounding
has blown us far and far…..and far
I don’t even know where I could be landing
Someday?,….. somewhere?….perhaps…
My friend,
No matter what,
Please, never ever forget or doubt that
The link and feeling arouse us is true….
Never turn your back to me
As I will always stand by you
Believe in you,….
and I promise that…
I’ll always be true …
That’s my Promise to you…!.
Please! My friend,
Keeping on what we’d believe
Never ever open your soul to evils
Or lend your ears to devils…
As they’ll rob and breaks
all we have built and gained
My friend,
No matter what, I just want to know that
Will you still be my friend?
I won’t dare to ask for more
But what if it’s only for
Now? or Tomorrow? ….
from the first time we met,
I know that you’re the one
That I needed, like a friend indeed
Dear friend,
When we talk, I can feel that
My loneliness has flushed away
and the emptiness has been filled
It was you..!!
Who makes my life so full….
It’s meaningful, colourful and wonderful
Yet,
I realize that, the bridge we build
weren’t solid enough
not as strong as I though it could be
the wind from the surrounding
has blown us far and far…..and far
I don’t even know where I could be landing
Someday?,….. somewhere?….perhaps…
My friend,
No matter what,
Please, never ever forget or doubt that
The link and feeling arouse us is true….
Never turn your back to me
As I will always stand by you
Believe in you,….
and I promise that…
I’ll always be true …
That’s my Promise to you…!.
Please! My friend,
Keeping on what we’d believe
Never ever open your soul to evils
Or lend your ears to devils…
As they’ll rob and breaks
all we have built and gained
My friend,
No matter what, I just want to know that
Will you still be my friend?
I won’t dare to ask for more
But what if it’s only for
Now? or Tomorrow? ….
The Equation Of ± Act = -Word
When the books be my boyfriends,
People thought that I was boast on how clever I was
But when I push away the books for a couple of minutes…,
People said “such a lazy and have no future girl !”
When I show more humorous and cheer up my friend,
People thought I want to attract some handsome guys,
But when I be more polite and try to sit in a corner,
People said “what a morose kid!”
When I hang on with my GPRS handphone,
People thought I want to show off and told
how much gold are there under my pillow
But when I am only using a Nokia 3100,
People said “Totally out of trend. U should put it in museum!”
When I have a handsome boyfriend,
People thought I was choosy and will only choose the same standard guys
But when I got someone with a world map on his face,
People questioned; “are there no other boys in the Earth?”
When I be such a nice, friendly and kind – hearted girl,
People thought that I must to…,my parents are teacher right?
When I be the most wanted student by the discipline teacher,
People said “her parents of teacher can back her up!”
When I am willing to do everything to satisfied everyone
But failed to do that …,
They should know that nobody is perfect….
And I should understand that
I shouldn’t care of what they will said and how they might be thinking of
As long as I enjoyed my life
And never done anything wrong…
I know that…depth inside my very own self….
I have chosen the right path
to continue my journey…
People thought that I was boast on how clever I was
But when I push away the books for a couple of minutes…,
People said “such a lazy and have no future girl !”
When I show more humorous and cheer up my friend,
People thought I want to attract some handsome guys,
But when I be more polite and try to sit in a corner,
People said “what a morose kid!”
When I hang on with my GPRS handphone,
People thought I want to show off and told
how much gold are there under my pillow
But when I am only using a Nokia 3100,
People said “Totally out of trend. U should put it in museum!”
When I have a handsome boyfriend,
People thought I was choosy and will only choose the same standard guys
But when I got someone with a world map on his face,
People questioned; “are there no other boys in the Earth?”
When I be such a nice, friendly and kind – hearted girl,
People thought that I must to…,my parents are teacher right?
When I be the most wanted student by the discipline teacher,
People said “her parents of teacher can back her up!”
When I am willing to do everything to satisfied everyone
But failed to do that …,
They should know that nobody is perfect….
And I should understand that
I shouldn’t care of what they will said and how they might be thinking of
As long as I enjoyed my life
And never done anything wrong…
I know that…depth inside my very own self….
I have chosen the right path
to continue my journey…
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Kepadanya...Daripadaku
Sering ku mempersendakan kamu…..kawan…
Bukan sengaja dan bukan untuk suka – suka…
Hanya untuk memecahkan suasana kekok….
tiada niat jahat atau “udang di sebalik kuetiau”
Saudara…, saudari….
Harap tidak tersinggung dengan gurauan daripadaku…
Yang berbunyi seperti sindiran kadang – kala…
Ingin ku cuba luahkan dan fahamkan
Apa yang tersirat dalam sanubari kalian….
Dengarkanlah….daripadaku….kepadamu….
Ku cuba meluahkan kata – kata dalam dirimu
Bila aku…..
“ ketawa’, dia kata aku gila
“menangis”, dia kata aku sakit jiwa
“senyum”, dia kata aku mengada – ngada
“tersengih”, dia kata aku tak ubah macam kera
“termenung”, dia kata aku teringat teman
“gigit kuku”, dia kata aku frust bercinta
“kenyit mata”, dia kata aku ngorat wanita
“tak bertentang mata”, dia kata aku berahsia,
“gie shopping mall”, dia kata aku nak tunjuk kaya
“gie taman”, dia kata aku nak berasmara
“tak makan”, dia kata aku tunggu dia belanja
“aku menjeling”, dia kata aku terasa
“aku melawa”, dia kata aku buaya pulak
Aku….aku…..Ah!!!
Semuanya tak kena!
Kalau dia….
ewah, ewah….sempurna bak bulan purnama!
Aku wat dek ngan dia…..tahu pulak dia terasa
Bila dia mula resah…..
Ape lagi? Aku stay selamba ajelah…..
Bukankah begitu kata – kata dalam dirimu?
Benarkah tafsiran daripadaku?
Sekiranya masih terdapat sebarang ‘komen’ dalam
diri saudara….dan saudari….
Panjangkanlah aje karyaku ini…..
Memang lumrah manusia….KOMEN tak abis – abis…!!!
Bukan sengaja dan bukan untuk suka – suka…
Hanya untuk memecahkan suasana kekok….
tiada niat jahat atau “udang di sebalik kuetiau”
Saudara…, saudari….
Harap tidak tersinggung dengan gurauan daripadaku…
Yang berbunyi seperti sindiran kadang – kala…
Ingin ku cuba luahkan dan fahamkan
Apa yang tersirat dalam sanubari kalian….
Dengarkanlah….daripadaku….kepadamu….
Ku cuba meluahkan kata – kata dalam dirimu
Bila aku…..
“ ketawa’, dia kata aku gila
“menangis”, dia kata aku sakit jiwa
“senyum”, dia kata aku mengada – ngada
“tersengih”, dia kata aku tak ubah macam kera
“termenung”, dia kata aku teringat teman
“gigit kuku”, dia kata aku frust bercinta
“kenyit mata”, dia kata aku ngorat wanita
“tak bertentang mata”, dia kata aku berahsia,
“gie shopping mall”, dia kata aku nak tunjuk kaya
“gie taman”, dia kata aku nak berasmara
“tak makan”, dia kata aku tunggu dia belanja
“aku menjeling”, dia kata aku terasa
“aku melawa”, dia kata aku buaya pulak
Aku….aku…..Ah!!!
Semuanya tak kena!
Kalau dia….
ewah, ewah….sempurna bak bulan purnama!
Aku wat dek ngan dia…..tahu pulak dia terasa
Bila dia mula resah…..
Ape lagi? Aku stay selamba ajelah…..
Bukankah begitu kata – kata dalam dirimu?
Benarkah tafsiran daripadaku?
Sekiranya masih terdapat sebarang ‘komen’ dalam
diri saudara….dan saudari….
Panjangkanlah aje karyaku ini…..
Memang lumrah manusia….KOMEN tak abis – abis…!!!
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