對 不 起 。。。謝 謝 !

我還記得曾經 。。。
有一個你 ﹐莫莫的陪伴着我
無條件的。。。安靜的。。。神密的
隨時隨克都在圍繞着我

曾經 。。。
我們從深夜談到天亮
只有你肯聽我所說的話
也只有你能聽得見我的心聲
不必我多說 ﹐你也能了解我的一切

也許 。。。
你比我跟了解我自己
悲傷覺望時﹐你把肩膀讓我靠
依服讓我擦淚水和鼻涕
手腳不動任我拳打腳題
也不曾追問 。。。只有等待
當我冷靜下來了
原意說的時後
你就會是那個
成為我第一個忠實的 。。。 聽重 !

開心時﹐
我常常把你給忘記
遠遠的把你給當着模生人看
回想過來 。。。我想 ﹐
你也會在某個角落裡
在為我現上祝福和一起干杯慶祝吧

但 。。。現實終是參枯的
很抱歉﹐我要狠狠的把你給忘記
你也因該比我請楚
你是不存在的 。。。假相 。。。。

你是我的影子啊!
活在我心裡黑安中的同伴
一切都是 為了安慰和偏自己的 。。。
朋友和家人也因此認為
我是個自閉的人甚至神筋有問題 。。。
許多次也因為我而悲傷﹐ 絕望 。。。
對不起 。。我真的該醒醒了 !

當我找到辛福 ﹐快樂和目標的時候
你也不知不覺的消失了
連一聲到別的話也沒向我說!
而現在
每當 。。。剩下我一個人的時候
我又開始懷念我們過去終終的日子
但 。。。那感覺可不一樣了
再也看不見你了!

我因該是開心還是傷心呢 ?

朋友啊。。。
雖然我已找到了當初我所可望的
但我卻失去了你
你若是真實的多好阿。。。

朋友啊。。。
你可知道﹐ 我在這新的世界
在茫茫人海中﹐ 還沒找到象你一樣
可以談心事和共同喜怒哀樂的有緣人呢
你為什麼這麼快就放手
讓我髑自一個人面對呢?

但, 我也很請楚的一點
那就是我 。。。
不可以在活在自己的世界了!
朋友 。。。對于你 。。。。
我只能夠說的就只有。。。
對不起。。。謝謝!

Trusted in you

My friend,
from the first time we met,
I know that you’re the one
That I needed, like a friend indeed

Dear friend,
When we talk, I can feel that
My loneliness has flushed away
and the emptiness has been filled

It was you..!!
Who makes my life so full….
It’s meaningful, colourful and wonderful

Yet,
I realize that, the bridge we build
weren’t solid enough
not as strong as I though it could be
the wind from the surrounding
has blown us far and far…..and far
I don’t even know where I could be landing
Someday?,….. somewhere?….perhaps…

My friend,
No matter what,
Please, never ever forget or doubt that
The link and feeling arouse us is true….
Never turn your back to me
As I will always stand by you
Believe in you,….
and I promise that…
I’ll always be true …
That’s my Promise to you…!.

Please! My friend,
Keeping on what we’d believe
Never ever open your soul to evils
Or lend your ears to devils…
As they’ll rob and breaks
all we have built and gained

My friend,
No matter what, I just want to know that
Will you still be my friend?
I won’t dare to ask for more
But what if it’s only for
Now? or Tomorrow? ….

The Equation Of ± Act = -Word

When the books be my boyfriends,
People thought that I was boast on how clever I was
But when I push away the books for a couple of minutes…,
People said “such a lazy and have no future girl !”

When I show more humorous and cheer up my friend,
People thought I want to attract some handsome guys,
But when I be more polite and try to sit in a corner,
People said “what a morose kid!”

When I hang on with my GPRS handphone,
People thought I want to show off and told
how much gold are there under my pillow
But when I am only using a Nokia 3100,
People said “Totally out of trend. U should put it in museum!”

When I have a handsome boyfriend,
People thought I was choosy and will only choose the same standard guys
But when I got someone with a world map on his face,
People questioned; “are there no other boys in the Earth?”

When I be such a nice, friendly and kind – hearted girl,
People thought that I must to…,my parents are teacher right?
When I be the most wanted student by the discipline teacher,
People said “her parents of teacher can back her up!”

When I am willing to do everything to satisfied everyone
But failed to do that …,
They should know that nobody is perfect….
And I should understand that
I shouldn’t care of what they will said and how they might be thinking of

As long as I enjoyed my life
And never done anything wrong…
I know that…depth inside my very own self….
I have chosen the right path
to continue my journey…

Kepadanya...Daripadaku

Sering ku mempersendakan kamu…..kawan…
Bukan sengaja dan bukan untuk suka – suka…
Hanya untuk memecahkan suasana kekok….
tiada niat jahat atau “udang di sebalik kuetiau”

Saudara…, saudari….
Harap tidak tersinggung dengan gurauan daripadaku…
Yang berbunyi seperti sindiran kadang – kala…
Ingin ku cuba luahkan dan fahamkan
Apa yang tersirat dalam sanubari kalian….

Dengarkanlah….daripadaku….kepadamu….
Ku cuba meluahkan kata – kata dalam dirimu

Bila aku…..
“ ketawa’, dia kata aku gila
“menangis”, dia kata aku sakit jiwa
“senyum”, dia kata aku mengada – ngada
“tersengih”, dia kata aku tak ubah macam kera
“termenung”, dia kata aku teringat teman
“gigit kuku”, dia kata aku frust bercinta
“kenyit mata”, dia kata aku ngorat wanita
“tak bertentang mata”, dia kata aku berahsia,
“gie shopping mall”, dia kata aku nak tunjuk kaya
“gie taman”, dia kata aku nak berasmara
“tak makan”, dia kata aku tunggu dia belanja
“aku menjeling”, dia kata aku terasa
“aku melawa”, dia kata aku buaya pulak

Aku….aku…..Ah!!!
Semuanya tak kena!
Kalau dia….
ewah, ewah….sempurna bak bulan purnama!
Aku wat dek ngan dia…..tahu pulak dia terasa
Bila dia mula resah…..
Ape lagi? Aku stay selamba ajelah…..
Bukankah begitu kata – kata dalam dirimu?
Benarkah tafsiran daripadaku?
Sekiranya masih terdapat sebarang ‘komen’ dalam
diri saudara….dan saudari….
Panjangkanlah aje karyaku ini…..
Memang lumrah manusia….KOMEN tak abis – abis…!!!

Kepada "Pa" & "Ma"

Memukul ombak membawa arus
Dibawa arus berayun rakit
Terlintas pepatah ‘masa itu emas’
Semakin lama semakin singkat

Memandang langit cerah membiru
Bergerak awan dibawa angin
Teringat waktu kecil dahulu
Namun segalanya hanya tinggal bayangan

Terbang tinggi burung di langit
Tak pernah alpa mencari mangsa di darat
Terbang pergi kapal di langit
Sekali pergi tak pernah mendarat

Langit mendung dilitupi awan
Angin meniup membawa hujan
Lama menunggu tiada jawapan
Janji diberi tak pernah dikotakan

Hujan merintik ke bawah tanah
Memberi harapan kepada tanah kemarau
Menunggu berita ibu dan ayah
Berita hampa air mata kan bersilau

Hujan setitik tak penuh sedulang
Matahari kian membakar bumi
Kian lama masa menghilang
Harapan dan janji kini telah dikebumi

Pepohon lesu ditinggalkan dedaun
Batang teguh menunggu masa
Wajah ibu dan ayah kini hanya ingatan
Hati kini beku tiada sebarang rasa

Serangga dan binatang kembali ke hutan
Pepohon kembali hidup di bumi kemarau
Segala hampa dan kecewa biar sahaja dilupakan
Mengajar dan melatihku agar tabah menjalani hidupku

Alam kini kembali berseri
Nelayan dan petani beersyukur padaNya
Sampai bila harus ku menanti
Untuk bertemu semula dengannya